Imposter syndrome, a term that has been haunting me for a while now. Because it adequately describes how I feel about myself.
Being an imposter, essentially means you are constantly questioning your capabilities, chasing goal after goal, perfection after perfection. A crazy life with a restless mind.
“Don’t quit today, quit tomorrow” is a powerful mental strategy used in Navy SEAL training. My version of this would be, “Don’t stop today, stop tomorrow”. That’s what I live by.
A lot of friends tell me that this life I’m living is graceless and that I’m going to die with no memories. That’s true, but I just feel uncomfortable moving away from this life. I actually enjoy the way my life progresses. Learning a lot of things, that were once very hard, which are now easy. One small step at a time, a step towards development.
My parents told, you work hard now, enjoy later. My friends ask me, “What’s the point of working hard with no memories to look back, after all we live to create memories ?”
Every achievement of mine is backed with negative comments - “You don’t deserve this”. Although I don’t listen to negativity, but sometimes when I hear the same thing again and again. I just tend to give in, maybe it’s true.
After all, many of that is true. I know personally :( I don’t deserve many things in my life. I think many don’t. I think it’s normal.
I’m going to continue being how I am. Anyways, I haven’t met anyone trustworthy except my parents. I am gonna trust the experience of my parents and move on I guess. Let’s see how it goes. Will keep this post updated :)